Its Personal

Proud to say I am eighteen. Living for eighteen years. Many people may say eighteen years is a long period of time, then you must have learned a lot. You should have a lot knowledge by now. But for me myself, I do not really agree that. Living for eighteen years and I have spend twelve years in school, three stages of studies, simply means three different routine for twelve years. Yes, I do agree I gain a lot from school, and probably is all facts. But for knowledge that really bring myself up to have a successful life, I don't think that I've learned any yet. All this great knowledge does not come from book or from anyone, but one has to meditate. And all the movement, evidence, friends, and peoples around will trigger different sense of meditation.

I am glad to make so many friends in the past eighteen years, and almost all my favorite moment I spend it together with friends. I do appreciate friendship very much. Friendship is part of my treasure in live. This treasure will turn to different color when come to different moment in life. But one thing do not change is it will always sticks to me even though we are thousand mile away. I am proud to say for the past eighteen years, I have built bonds – strong bonds that hold friendship to eternal. This will be one of the knowledge I have, and it’s really doesn't came easily.

Life may be long or short, it depends on each individual. Each individual stays a different life, it’s simply means life is unique for everyone. Living for eighteen years, for myself, I do not use age of years to measure how old I am. I will measure my age by experience, evidence I have expose before and the knowledge that I have gain. Because I understand life is not measure by the number of breaths we take, but by the moment that takes our breath away.

After the final high school exam (SPM) over. I have given myself a half year long holiday. During this long holiday, I did the same thing as a lot student will do – a part time job. Earning extra income by myself, that just to satisfy myself. However I did not work solidly the whole holiday, but just a short period of time, which's just less than two months time. I do gain a lot experience and knowledge from jobs. But day after day, I found that I can no longer stand the same routine anymore. At that time, I do make a lot of deep thinking, soul searching, and even meditate. Soon, I found that the daily life I’m having is something keeping me stays inside a box. If I would continue doing the same part time job – in another meaning is just placing myself into a smaller box from a bigger one. At the same time I was also worrying about my tertiary studies. Month by month, time just passes. And I still do not come out any final decision about my studies. I feel nervous and miserable all the time. Most of my time I will just finish it at home. I'm too free and a lot of question start floating in my mind. Meditation has begun. In the end, I have found that the only option to bring me out of the box is through network, or internetworking.

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